Why I still live at home and not working the simple version.

I still live at home for medical reasons. Can I take care of my self Do not know. Why leave when you have most things provided. I do cut the grass and do a lot of the heaven lifting as well when they ask me. If you do not have a medical reason to get a job by all means try to get a job. Would love to be able to be normal. The most normal I have is writing this. I have found I like to write. I just do not have the patents or focus to stay on one topic instead of dozens. Yep, that way losing focus the last few sentences. People say you look fine get a job. Yeah getting a job for anyone is hard. But when you factor in Autism, ADD, Depression, Anxiety, and OCD. It can be down right impossible especially when You act not so normal. And then their is anger problem that really acts up when I am too stressed or too much change happens too fast. If I am angry I need to leave if I can’t I tend to explode. I do not want to hit anyone so keep to as small events as possible. This means many, many lonely nights. And then you factor in I came out gay as well. Plus A firm believer in Christ. Autism + Christian + Autism and other problems + gay = A very bad combination.

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Controversial marketing to help others.

A vast majority of things I post are very much marketing. Even the strange/ controversial things. Most of the controversial things I am trying to integrate it with everything. Controversial or not is it very much me. It always has been. I do not care what most people say. I care for those who are closest to me. I am Christian, but I am not perfect. No one Is. Could I grow far faster than I am? Could I open far more than I do yes? Most of my network are either Christian or business people. So integrating the controversial things will not happen quickly. And Yes, It would make me labeled as a total nut case of not help possible at least most Christians would say that. What I post and comment on is very mild I have to be that way. Do not want to but you have to watch your steps. I am already on many radars do not need to be on more. That controversial area would be every single LGBTIAQ+ related website on the planet. That is what I do when The depression acts up. I do mean 100% Of all related sites in those areas. Even those sites are the primary source of my great new networks I used to join. How can you help people if you do not know what makes them tick? Average Books will not help one bit. To help people you must go were, they are.