Opening part of my heart

I’m going to open up my heart part open right now. Do you know what it is like to have a communication problems? Most people don’t. So, they don’t know what it really is going on in the other persons brain. I do! I have a Small problem called Autism Weather or not it real or not. I have had it all my life It is a blessing a  curse and the same time. My communication are not perfect but I do communicate when I need to. Most people who have it you would never really know they just act strange or odd. But with me all people are odd. Not really able to understand people facial expressions. Not able to make many friends or keep them long is why I decided to put all my effort to the computer. To not get exercise or even have a job not my choosing. Some of it is but most isn’t. I ask of you who know someone who has autism. Most have no clue what face your making. And they can’t say the words that they want to say. Most people who have autism have a anger problem. This comes from there communication problems. For me I think I have found my true voice online. I don’t have to deal with peoples emotions. If I could I would stay on the computer all the time. But, I know its not healthy to use it that long. But in the end I Know only one understands what I go through.  Its his perfect love for all those who want it. I’m talking about Jesus Christ as lord and savior he is above all my problems on this world. His death on the cross and his Resurrection from the death. For he took all our sins away. All our problems. Everything! Put it at the bottom of the cross. For it all has been forgiven. I can’t prove that he is real. But, I just know its faith. Faith it can’t be proven. you just have to believe in nothing and you get nothing. That is what almost everybody in the world believes in is absolute nothing. Jesus is absolute love It can’t be described. Even with everything I have gone though I know he is there for everything. For every situation. Whether it was the bulling in high school or talking walk down the street. No one can ever take my faith God has a hold on me. I know him He is the only one I have ever could understand. His love is so much that at times I can’t even stand it. But He says I Am Who I Am! The beginning and the end.